[The words for their defense tumble from his mouth before he can catch himself. There was a twist in his chest at the thought of humans as a collective, and anger that ran through him like a poison for centuries.
Yet at the same time, his mind went to the people he had once befriended. Nanu always cooking for him despite him telling him multiple times he didn't need to eat. He was probably making some trashy meal of cup noodles or something. Vague memories of kind words and affections of others also came unbidden. How could he hate them? But they were humans...
He tried to keep the thoughts forced down, don't think about it. Don't remember. Don't let those that care for you know what a monster you've become.]
Stop it... STOP IT!
[Please don't take this away from me, brother. Don't do this to me. Please...]
[He clutched his head and brought his knees up, trying to force the anger and the memories down again. What would Kanoa say? What would he do? How could he still be that person?]
I can't- they're worried about me... I have to... I-
[He shook his head. Had to what? Lie to them? No, it couldn't be a lie, it had to be the truth. He had to forget.]
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[The words for their defense tumble from his mouth before he can catch himself. There was a twist in his chest at the thought of humans as a collective, and anger that ran through him like a poison for centuries.
Yet at the same time, his mind went to the people he had once befriended. Nanu always cooking for him despite him telling him multiple times he didn't need to eat. He was probably making some trashy meal of cup noodles or something. Vague memories of kind words and affections of others also came unbidden. How could he hate them? But they were humans...
He tried to keep the thoughts forced down, don't think about it. Don't remember. Don't let those that care for you know what a monster you've become.]
Stop it... STOP IT!
[Please don't take this away from me, brother. Don't do this to me. Please...]
[He clutched his head and brought his knees up, trying to force the anger and the memories down again. What would Kanoa say? What would he do? How could he still be that person?]
I can't- they're worried about me... I have to... I-
[He shook his head. Had to what? Lie to them? No, it couldn't be a lie, it had to be the truth. He had to forget.]